The Muft Ki Toxicity I Receive Almost Everyday
The only thing I appreciate as a very opiniated person is all the unasked toxicity I receive almost everyday but still somehow manage to be unbothered about it.
As an argumentative and politically opinionated person, I feel like I’m an easy target. It’s almost like whatever I say can be twisted and a whole new conspiracy can be stirred up in the conspiracy pot.
“You don’t understand this game, ladki!” was directed towards me when I said something very much relevant to the topic of Cricket. A sport that is admired by a majority of people, but what I couldn’t understand was how something is problematic when it is completely relevant and logical about a certain topic.
For example, I get called out almost 10 times a day for presenting arguments which I find relevant and understandable, and when I am not saying anything, people come up to me and ask me if I am okay because me being quiet during a debate or discussion isn’t something they expect.
People come up to me and ask me, “Hey, you are that girl from Class X that keeps on raising questions for the slightest inconvenience caused, right?”, and I just stand there, speechless and when my brain finally processes the “compliment” I reply, “Yeah, that’s definitely not me,” with an eye roll and a sigh.
When I am delivering my side of an on-going debate, I look into the audience and I see all those judgmental eyes glued on me and if, by chance, I say something slightly “problematic”, those porcelain doll-like eyes throw daggers and tomatoes and eggs at me. It’s like they’ll suddenly jump on the stage and gobble me up.
For me, I don’t really mind the targeting because it’s like their way of projecting their feelings and opinions. Just like I share mine. However, sometimes those comments hurt, but whenever I encounter such comments my mind goes, “It’s just muft ki toxicity bro, tension mat le”, and then I calm down.
It’s hard controlling my feelings whenever I am targeted but it’s a part of me and I will embrace my politically opinionated self and when required, I will let it out.
Sincerely,
Shikha
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